1. He backs up my car for me when it's time to leave so that I don't panic about running over small children.
2. He makes me get in the car first when we take out the garbage and has me watch as he makes sure the garbage really isn't too close to the road and will not cause an accident.
3. He double checks the oven when I'm worried it's still on.
4. He brings me chocolate during that time of month.
5. He cooks me steak and potatoes dinner and gets a bottle of Pink Truck simply because it's my fav wine ever!
6. He looks for jobs for me during the day because he knows I hate my job now.
7. He always meets me at my house when we're going out so that if I have a glass of wine, I won't have to drive home.
8. He will drop whatever he's doing to come over if I have a long day.
9. He answers at 3am to talk me through a panic attack.
10. He gets protective if someone is disrespectful to me and is quick to bring it to their attention.
11. He knows that when I order chicken alfredo that I really would like angel hair, and that I don't want any seasoning on my chicken, and that they can leave the peppers, onions, or cheese off of the meal all together.
12. He fixes my stuff when it's broken.
13. He tells me I look pretty even when I just woke up and know that I don't.
14. He'll come shopping with me and not complain once!
15. He picks random times to tell me that he can't wait to spend forever with me.
16. He tells his whole family that he's going to marry me :)
17. He reassures me that I'm not pregnant because we haven't even had sex.
18. He loves my cat Firestone and brings him treats.
19. He drives me to the cities for interviews because he knows that I hate driving downtown.
20. Not to mention, he always drives because I hate driving in general.
21. He brings me lunch at work on days that I mention I can't take a lunch break.
22. He thinks of little things at random moments. (i.e. hearing Jimmy Wayne's version of Sarah Smiles and deciding he wants it to be the last song they play at our wedding)
23. He cracks my back everyday even when it grosses him out.
24. He washes dishes at the cabin so that I can sleep in, and even cooks me breakfast!
25. He unlocks the cabin so that I don't panic about losing the keys in the dark.
26. He goes and checks for burglars when I hear noises at night.
27. He takes me hunting even though I only like to go for about an hour before I get bored.
28. He changes Apple's oil and pumps gas so I don't have to.
29. He knows that when we get buffalo/chicken wings that we want the sauce on the side, and it should be one asian zing for him and one sweet bbq for me.
30. He also knows to order the dressing on the side at Olive Garden...

Well i guess it's more of a list of all the stuff he does for me, but i still love him for trying! Of course there's many others to add to the list such as his handsomeness, and humor... but those are a given.

<3 Sarah

I got another random facebook message today from you-know-who... It read as follows:

"hey, i just wanted to give u a heads up before you found out on your own that i defriended us on facebook. i know it sounds dumb as hell, but i wanted to let you kno that it is nothing personal. Its just hard for me to swallow how accepting your family can be of your new man when i feel like i did so much to earn that same respect, to no avail. Anyways I understand that that is going to contintue to happen and i am truly happy for you, we are both better off now, I just wanted to explain myself and let you know what i was doing, and my reasoning behind it. Its nothing against you at all. Have a good one."

Drama, drama, drama. Good grief.

Hearts,
Sars

First off, i'm so glad i'm a senior because i am honestly spent. I have zero energy left to do anything but sleep all day long and am so tired of class and homework and work and being on campus it's crazy!

We had our senior banquet last thursday night. Everyone got together in our dining hall and it was a nice classy, formal event. They had wine and a big buffet and all that stuff it was a lot of fun i went with meg, mandi, audrey, a girl named jess, and lysdahl... it was really fun actually and then afterwards, the school had buses going back and forth from a bar in mpls called sneaky pete's. THIS is where things got awkward.

So we all went together and there were tons of ppl there (all seniors from UST, we had the whole thing to ourselves) anyways... We had a couple beers and all of a sudden we're dancing and having fun and then corey comes up across from me and starts just dancing with himself cuz he was obviously drunk... then reaches out and grabs my hand and starts trying to swing dance with me... YA! the last thing i expected...

I did one spin and put a fake smile on my face to not be super mean... but i was super creeped out cuz i didnt know what the hell was going on. He puts his arm around my waste and says "HI sarah" smiles. "How are you? It's been a long time!" I'm like yeah, it has. I'm great how are you? He's like i'm great....

Then he tries to ask how the family is, i'm like they're great too..........

Awkward.... Then meg grabs my arm and says 'dance with me!!!' so she totally saved me. It was great. So then he keeps dancing and stuff and then jumps up on the stage where the stripper pole was and keeps yelling "SARAH!!!! HEY! SARAAAAH" i turn around he's like "Come dance with me!!!" I shook my head no and said no way... he kept sayin it and i just ignored him... lol

Finally he jumps down and goes to get another drink. I'm like sweet, i'm just gonna dance with my friends now... Then he comes BACK and sits down and starts staring at me as i'm dancing with the girls as he's double fisting it with drinks in his hand. I'm like wow, some things never change! haha so i ignore him staring at me and keep dancing but i can still feel his eyes, finally i glance over and he's staring at me and says "Sar!! Come here!!" i pretended not to hear him and waved lol but then he motions to come over to him at this empty table where he's sitting and i actually felt bad for him, i didn't want to ignore him even more.. so i went over and said, 'whats up!'

He pushes a drink over to me... "I bought this for you!" he says....

I'm like uh, no you didn't... "Ya i did! It's been forever since i've seen you, and even longer since you defriended me on facebook... i jwant to talk to you"

Great...... i'm thinking...... so now what do i do? i told him that i didn't want anything else to drink "thanks for the thought tho!" lol he's like 'but i bought it for YOU'... i said i didnt want it, so he gave it to his friend kev.

So he tells me that all of his friends that i met when we were dating are engaged... I'm like oh thats nice. "Good for them! That's awesome!" I tried to sound enthused... and then he got quiet so i'm like ok.. so you're next then! i said.

No. He said seriously. OK then... He said "if i'm next, then you're next!"

How does that work?

He then asks how long i've been seeing tyler and how he is and all that stuff and then he shakes his head and looks at me, shakes his head, takes a deep breath and starts to say something then my friend jess grabbed my hand to leave and so i yelled 'i gotta go! i'll talk to you later! good to see yoU!' lol i didnt know what else to say and he looked super upset when i was saying that... and he kept like grabbing at my hands to hold them i'm like no, thanks.... not interested....

How weird!!! Isn't it??

Anyways, homework time. (yay)

Hearts,
Sars

So the ex caught me on facebook chat last night... we chatted for a little bit... all surface scraping nothing really of substance... he asked how my dad like tyler i said he loves him. He goes on to say 'i guess it was just me' and i said i guess so! as a joke and said 'lol jk' we talked for like 2 more min then he had to go. Then today i get this message;

"Hey, sorry about leaving last night so quickly. I didn't want to say something I shouldnt...I just wanted to let you know that the joke you made about your dad treating you badly bc of me, hit me kind of hard. I took that situation very seriously and it had a big affect on me, and like I said, it still does. Anyways I just wanted to let you know what was on my mind. I think its best of we don't talk anymore, it just seems like everytime we do, that the situation with your dad comes into my mind and stresses me out. I am happy for you, I really am, but hearing how I was the source of him treatin you poorly, and how much he loves Tyler isnt what i need to hear. I hope you have a great finish to the school year and find the house you are looking for:-). Have a good one."

What the hell is this supposed to mean? I don't understand it, i really dont try to talk to him anyways so why is he all about this drama bull? For reals son.

Anyways, ty just woke from his nap, "hi beautiful, you look gorgeous."

I think i made the right choice :)

Hearts,
Sars

Well, I've created a monster ladies. A cute monster, but a monster nonetheless.

"Esteban" - Suite Life of Zach and Cody (Disney Channel)

I wonder what I do now.... Here is a message i just got on facebook.

"i did look, u read the bible. song of solomon 4:7 ..... that matches with u"

Intrigued, i biblegateway'ed the passage because come on, i'm a curious person. It reads as below:

" 7 All beautiful you are, my darling;
       there is no flaw in you.

  You have stolen my heart, my sister, my bride;
       you have stolen my heart
       with one glance of your eyes,
       with one jewel of your necklace."

Cute little passage, i dont think i've ever read it before...can't say that anymore, huh?

Anywho... life back at UST is boring just as I expected... doin hw and goin to class... this whole thing gets old so fast, doesn't it? O well. I think i'm gonna go take a nap then grocery shop later.

PS i really want uggs hahah thanks brit, i was just starting to get over that craving too! lol  o well

hugs and kisses.